I, like a few other members, stumbled accros this site. I have always known I was different, but did not know how or why until my "human" host left our body. It is difficult for me to explain and most people look at me as if I have a "screw" or two loose. I am, as mentioned, a loner.

I am happy to have discovered a means of communicating with others like myself, I knew you existed but did not know how to reach you, other than spiritually. I am looking forward to sharing my experiences, they are numerous and varied. Thank you all for being here, now.

It is a trip seeing this online hmm?
I understand your feelings of craziness completely; When I awoke and the human was gone; I felt very crazy and was treated as well.

Meeting and speaking with many others and looking towards the future with purpose is wonderful tho.

Look forward to talking and otherwise welcome

I am currently having great difficulty explaining to my "significant other" what the process was that created me, I was with the soul I now inhabit within moments of her birth. I could not become until she left this soul...

Did you feel slightly disoriented when you came to be, having knowledge that you did not feel was yours, but your hosts...distant and difficult to catch?

Welcome from aswell. Please share how you communicate with the others, and what do you communicate about.

Geez, that is a good question....I just do, most of the times it is through empathy, sometimes it is by astral projection, I have power centers for those who are closest to me...and as for communicating with spirits I just do...

What do I communicate...different things at different times, I think the thoughts and get responses back in the form of thoughts, impression, perceptions, omens...it varies. I have no one set way of doing things...

How do you communicate with others and what do you talk about?

Thanks for your answer. I communicate with people via a connection with my wing-chakra. I connect it with the base of the neck of the person I want to communicate with, and then I am able to feel feelings, receive images, or transfer energy.

Have you had much "formal" training? You mention "winged Chakras". I have had none, I just do what I do and know I can do it.

No I didn't have had any formal training. I just discovered that I had one and was using it. I only knew it was my wing-chakra when someone told me about the wing-chakra and I recognized it as being the same as mine .

How long have you known you were as you are?

I have known since I was a young child...I used to refer to myself as "We"....because in my case both the host and I existed, I could not be without her and she would not have survived her birth without me. If you want to know more I'll share the story...otherwise I won't bore you half to death.

Yes I am interested in your story, and am not bored, so please let me know.

I've know this since 2003 and that is when I started Merudi. Not in the form it is now, but the grounds has been lead then.

As I mentioned, I have always known that I was "not quite human", my first active memory is before I turned nine months old, I remember "flying" as a toddler at night (I assume I was projecting and did not realize it at the time), and up until the time my mother beat the hell out of me for doing so (about the time I was 5)- I would refer to myself as we.

Before I begin, I need to make a clear distinction in how I define two words...Soul (the corporeal body - flesh and bones, blood and guts) and Spirit (that gives life,animation, breath...that part of us that belongs to the universe -<God, the gods, Allah, etc.>)

Now comes the part that most "religious" people find hard to grasp and accept...I believe in the "duality" of nature, creation, the universe. Good/bad, positive/negative, left/right, up/down...all things have a balance and therefore all things exist within the duality, whether we can perceive, see, or imagine the nature of the joining of separate concepts.

The beginning. When my soul was being formed in its' mothers womb, it was by woman with Rh incompatible blood (this was before shots were developed to offset the condition, but at that time only the first child to RH incompatible parents survived), need less to say, my host was given a death sentence before "our" birth.

Yes, I did write "our" birth. Though I am not a twin. My host was given a choice, to have me join with her or to choose to remain in spiritual form. She choose to join and that happened within moments of her birth. Why did we not die? We were dieing as the hospital we were born out knocked my hosts' mother out and sent word to her father to get back home...he was in the Air Force and stationed half a country away at the time, my host was not due for another month and he had made arrangements to come home closer to her due date.

We were born on an Air Force base, and since my hosts' mother could not talk (Thank God, or she would have told them to not do anything since she had already had us baptized and given the last rites withing minutes of our birth) and her father was in transit...I unofficially became temporary property of the USAir Force.

At some point an amazing thing happened, a miracle of sorts. You know doctors and how they hate having their patients die on them, well one of the doctors came up with a brilliant idea (the same process saved my hosts' younger sister as well 6 years later - but we lost 4 babies before she was born). The idea - oh, that was to drain our blood and replace it, three times in my case, and as far as I know it was the first time this procedure had been used. At any rate we survived the birth of this Soul which should not have survived beyond it's first day.

Up until the time my host spirit left (which I consider to be a death) we were in constant communication, with me assuming the role of conscience. We had two different and distinct voices and speaking patterns which is how we would know which of us was "speaking" though all this took place in our thoughts. It was nice because I never knew true loneliness as a child, we were always together and therefore neither of us ever felt "alone".

Being the "guest" spirit I instinctively knew that my host had the right to make her own choices, I would provide her with more options and advice, but it was her life and her free will that took precedence over our life.

Hers was a harsh and loveless existence with her parents. Her mother was emotionally detached and religiously fanatic, her father a whore-monger who only had time to fuck his whores when he was not working, he took little to no interest in his children, leaving their upbringing to his "wife".

No one ever paid us any attention really, so no one was around to convince us that I "couldn't" exist, not until we was old enough to start calling our-self "we" and you heard how I was broke of that habit, but not the realization or knowledge that I existed in some form and served a specific function in my hosts life.