hello my darling, I'm here to help you.
you need to rest more and take better care of yourself. stop doing drugs and drinking alcohol and staying up late at night partying. you are abusing your body and it will take longer for you to become connected to Spirit if you pollute yourself.
eat less red meat and more green vegetables.
I can feel you have done a lot of crying recently. you aren't alone.
-cuddles-
next time you feel alone or hurt, close your eyes and feel cocooned in pure white light. feel it seeping into your very pores and energizing you. this is the love of Spirit, just for you.
blessings.