I am a mother of 3. Two boys and a girl which is my youngest. I just lost her May 3 of this year. She had mono and her spleen errupted. I started reading about the Angel-Human and was starting to think thats what she was. I am still learning about it, trying to understand it. I am reading "A New Earth" and it has helped me alot. I started feeling so blessed that she picked us to live her short life with. That seems so weird to some people, but I really do feel blessed. I just don't understand why she won't come to me and let me know she is alright. She knows how strongly I believe in ghosts and spirits. Can anyone help me? We did a You Tube tribute for her. If you would like to see more about her life, just go to youtube.com and type in Courtnei Lotridge. Part I and Part II. I would love your opinion of this short lived Angel.

What a beautiful girl, childeren shouldn't die, it's not fair. She sure was a girl with the energy of the new earth. Children with this energy are honest and lovable. Perhaps she was a human angel or an angel-human. But that is really not so important. She meant something for the people surrounding her, that's for sure. She is alright now, don't worry....

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.

I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.

I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I do not die

If you hear a song on the radio that gives you comfort, if you see a beautiful flower, if someone gives you a smile... remember that she's able to contact you in a very subtle way... It's up to you to recognize it..... Try not to hard to find her, the harder you try, the less you'll succeed. Only when you come to peace with this trauma, and have sorted things out for yourself, she'll be able to contact you in a way you want right now.... I wish you all the strength of the world to overcome the loss of such a beautiful child, and remember, she is watching over you know.....

Thank you Sarina, for your reply. Her birthday is Monday. She was going to be 16. It hurts very much, but I am so glad you replied back to me. It was a great comfort. I thought of a saying last night. "I feel a hurt in my heart when I pass your room...I feel a gladness in my soul when I know I will see you again." Thank you again.

You're welcome, I know she is with you all the time. Keep talking to her, she hears you, she really does... Tell her how you miss her, but that you know her spirit is not gone, and that you love her, and that you know you'll see her again.... Thank her for being with you. Two souls who love each other can never be parted.....

I wish you strength Monday, it will be very difficult... I'll think of you, I promise....